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I’m back, sorry it took me this long. It felt good to know that people actually noticed I hadn’t updated in a while. Thanks to all my readers, you guys keep me inspired. I might be gone for a while again after this ‘cause I’m back in school and all but don’t worry, I promise to keep you guys posted. Please read and leave your comments. Thanks and God bless you abundantly :*
The outburst of an introvert
At the speed of light I ran, I ran so fast I could have sworn at that point I wasn’t human. Driven solely by my own insanity, I could perceive it; doom’s day was near. My heart was beating so fast my chest muscles had lost their elasticity, my feet were so sore they became numb on the ground, my eyes were bloodshot red and my eyeballs popped out like I had been suffering from insomnia all my life. But I didn’t stop sprinting at my fastest speed, I ran like a lion after its prey- (who am I kidding, I’m the prey in this situation anyway), more like a prey running from her predator. All I just wanted was to get away from it all, they were killing me slowly and yes it hurts like hell. It was time to break loose.
A princess in captivity, a damsel in distress, a prisoner in her own domicile, so were my mind, body and soul. I had mouth yet I couldn’t utter a word, even if I wanted to, who is patient enough to comprehend? They all stand at alert, fully armed with their spears of judgement, ready to fire at you just by an inch of error- Like they were born flawless. Sometimes the words struggle to get to my throat and as always, they remain glued to my oesophagus. I choke on them like sticky food; I guess my stomach is beginning to regurgitate them.
I thought I was strong enough to handle their voraciousness and ferocity, alas! I was wrong. Their claws are like the sharp edges of a three edged sword. They cling to the walls of my intestine like a remora attaches itself to a shark. Their thirst for liberty gets heightened by the day, they push hard against my patience and they cause me to question my humanity. I can almost hear them wailing and screaming at me to let them go, they want to be shared with a different soul.
On days when the sun refuses to come up and nights when the moon hoards her light, I choose solitude over companionship and I relish in my own loneliness. Experiences and pains of ages past are all bottled up within me, I write a diary across my heart and a journal behind my soul. The pages are all filled up, my cup is filled to the brim and I’m close to suffocation.
So if I cross your path in this mind race that I’m running, do not be the reason my mouth would remain sealed forever. Do not create a pool of judgement before me and make me swim in it. Who knows, you might be the one to set me free and release me of my burdens. When I plead for your attention, all I want is just for you to listen; listen very closely to my heart and feel the blood running through my veins. I want you to listen to the words rumble in my stomach because I might not be able to push them all through my throat. I want you to look into my eyes and see that I mean no harm. It’s just who I am, meet the other part of me.
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