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Welcome back to another episode of the Cactus Series.
Today we are having Frances Okoro of Imperfectlyperfect92
Here’s her entry.
She tried to wash off the guilt from her body, from her soul…
Oh she tried…
But the scent of all she had done still stuck to her like glue.
Oh she knew, she knew very well that she was nothing, she was no one, worth nothing, worth nada.
Yes, even her boyfriend confirmed it. Her family was poor and good for nothing. Her mother was possessed and could not stay in marriage. She too was possessed and could not keep her relationship.
Yes, her boyfriend had told her time and time again. He had told her she had issues, only him could love her and accept her like she was. She would NEVER find a man like him, no one would ever love the worthless piece of good for nothing fat fool that she was except him.
She believed him.
He was right.
Who would have her? Who would have a girl who had committed two abortions already? She was damaged goods, done, dead and empty. She was not pretty, there was nothing particularly remarkable about her. She was fat and shapeless!
Oh she knew, she knew she was worthless…
She tried to scrub it off but it still stayed. The scent of the blood of her babies dripping on the doctors table while he sucked them out of her.
She was a horrible person, worthless and good for nothing.
Her boyfriend had said it and she believed him but maybe, just maybe there was a very little light at the end of the tunnel… She remembered her fellowship vice president saying something about talking to God as her father…Could that be true? Would that work? Will this Holy Father be willing to listen to a good for nothing girl like her?
Didn’t he also think that the whole of her existence amounted to nothing?
She had killed the babies he created for Christ’s sake! Would he hold that against her? Could she dare to try to come into presence?
She could not speak, her heart said it all and her floodgates of tears did the talking. The unrestrained tears said all her lips could not say… “Lord, sweet Lord, can you accept me again?”
It’s been 4years since she asked God that question from her soul.
It’s been 4years since she felt his hands embrace her that night.
It’s been 4years since he told her He loved her and will always will.
It’s been 4years since He told her she was beautiful and the apple of His eyes.
It’s been 4years since she was cleansed and refreshed in the Lord again.
Four years of bliss…
Four years of love in Christ…
Four years of growing in the one who forgave her and called her His…
Four years of God turning around her story for good…
Four years of her touching the lives God has placed in her path for good…
Most people do not believe she was who she was back then anymore…
They call her a strong woman, they say she is inspiring, a true motivation and worthy shoulder in time of need. They call her all shades of amazing names…
None of them can reconcile the little insecure girl of the past with the lady burning for Christ right now.
And all she really wants to do is just to make them understand that it was all God.
It is still all God.
She wants to shout it all on the rooftop to them…
You are not worthless.
You are not nothing.
You are not a piece of rag.
You are not too far gone.
You are beautiful, lovely and amazing.
You are wonderfully made.
You are something.
Your story can be used for good, simply let God mould you.
He loves you just as you are…
He loves you always and forever.
You can never be too far gone with Him.
Even if all others reject you, He is waiting, waiting to mould you into the corner stone He knows you can be.
Just Let Him.
Let Him come in and do what only He can do in your life.
Just Let Him.
Frances is a lawyer taking her bar exams soon, which means she has a really tight schedule. Thank you Frances for taking time out to join this series, we pray as you’ve created time to be a part of this witnessing, God will give your life full concentration and we wish you all the best in your exams!
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