I’ve been wanting to put up a post for days now but I just couldn’t come up with the right topic to sum up my year; I guess I was trying too hard to compress this very eventful year of my life into a few words. I posted a picture on instagram a while back and captioned it “2014- The year I grew up” and voila! the birth of a new post.
” Ditch the dream and be a doer; you have to keep moving forward. It doesn’t have to fit your vision of the perfect life. Just..do”- Shonda Rhimes
As I was reading this month’s issue of ELLE magazine, this quote caught my attention and Shonda spoke directly to me. Last year, I was Joseph’s long lost sister; in other words, I was a dreamer ( get it? lol). I had so many dreams I was starting to mix them up with reality. I mean,there’s nothing wrong in a girl having dreams right? Dreams are very cool but they’re way cooler when they stop appearing only in your sleep but also in reality.
This year, I took a trip down the “doer” lane and boy was it magical! And by magical I meant “shit got real”. Here are the highlights:
1) I learnt what it takes to be a citizen of a kingdom that can’t be shaken.
Earlier this year, I blogged about my new relationship with Christ ( and no, I haven’t fallen off the wagon,bae and I are still together and strong :p). The main reason I made this public by blogging about it was because when you make your intentions known to the world you either get two of these responses: a cheer or a dare. A lot of people will dare you to go for it just so they can spite you when you slip while a few others cheer you on to the finish line. I knew what I was signing up for and knowing there are people waiting to hear a report sorta helped the process.
My favorite gospel song this year was “I know who I am” by Sinach. This song says everything! I realized how much I can do by being the daughter of the most high. Last year, I was a dreamer Christian and this year I can confidently say I done did something! I’m not where I want to be in my walk of faith but I’m definitely not where I used to be.
Until we seek God sincerely with all our hearts, we can’t fully comprehend who we are.
2) I learnt how to fly without my wings
Oh yes I did! I took a bold step this year by leaving my blood family and friends who have now become family. To me, these people are my wings; they help me fly above pain, sadness and every other setback life decides to throw at me.Last year, I didn’t think I was strong enough to lift myself above the ground let alone fly but that was me being a dreamer. On the doer lane, you don’t always have wings but you still gotta fly.
I made decisions and stuck to them;I took chances and accepted whatever came with them. I wasn’t necessarily moving in the direction of my dreams every time but I made sure I was moving, knowing it would all fall into place at some point. I came out of my own box and I was exposed to a lot more than I had ever been… I grew up
“Be the change you want to see and wake up everyday with the aim of making the world suck a little bit less”
3) I learnt to be an intercessor
This is one year I put myself aside for a while and actually made space for other people. A lot of times this year I worked on my self-centered attitude by dedicating myself to serving others. Even though you think you might be going through a lot, you’re not the person with biggest problems in the world. Sometimes life weighs us down so much we can’t even pray for ourselves. I had a lot of moments this year I couldn’t pray for myself but I could still intercede for others.
When you shift your focus from your problems, it gives God the chance to reach you and use you as a blessing to others.
I’m glad for the lives God used me to reach this year and I’m even more excited for the plans he has for me in the years to come. I’m thankful for the battles he let me fight and the ones he told me to sit out.
As the year ends today, don’t be afraid to tell the people you love how much they mean to you.
What is love if it can’t be shown?
See you guys in the new year and thank you for reading!